In Summary.....

Last Monday:
break started. cried myself to sleep.

Thanksgiving (Thursday):
got together with my entire family (all of us, plus friends). walked on an ice skating rink in my converse. was called a bitch repeatedly by a drunken cousin. met the guy from the family reunion before. watched him and my older, prettier cousin flirt excessively. cried myself to sleep.

Friday:
went shopping with Chibi, her bro, and my bro at the KOP mall. parking was hell. went to wegman's and got groceries. dropped Chibi and her bro off at home, went home, dropped my bro off, got my sleepover stuff, went back to Chibi's house. helped her clean for her party, attended said party. Otaku-chan, Manga-dealer chan, Fish-chan, Rachel, and Fanboy (Tobi-kun) were there. we did invite Rover and RBF, as well as another couple, but none of them came. ate pizza, then watched Mulan. the book black market slept over.

Saturday:
went to work from Chibi's house. went home and baked cinnamon buns. cried myself to sleep again.

Today:
homework and blogging. realizations.

farewell.

updates

Homecoming!
was awesome. I went over to Rachel's house to get ready, and EVERYONE was there. Rachel (duh), me (also duh), Kaitlyn, and Chibi-chan! AND, Rover and his boyfriend (whom is awesome and i like a lot) came over because they were bored, and Chibi-chan and RBF (Rover's bf) helped me with my hair! It was like a big getting-ready party XD
The dance itself was also pretty good. We mostly stayed together in a semi-awkward circle, and danced as weird as we wanted. I discovered that Chibi-chan can really dance, and that Rover and RBF are both adorable and not that awkward when they're together. I mean, I've been with them when they're together, but compared to a lot of couples there, they were really good at not making people feel like a third wheel. Also, they can both dance. they can both dance well.
Despite the fact that I was not allowed to remove my 4-inch heels, and was therefore in some foot pain, I had an awesome time and would do it again in an instant.

The rest of until-now:
I took my ACT's, and now that my family is back from Disney World, I can actually do stuff besides babysit my pansy of a yellow lab.

Um.... yeah. I'm baking cookies right now.

Byes!!
Kat


Oh, and OpenLovingSoul, I didn't go to Florida because I didn't want to. I didn't feel like missing school to stand in lines in hot weather and eat overpriced junk food. So I stayed home. XD

Birding Club!!!

Ok, this is a little late, but I JOINED BIRDING CLUB! XD

We went on our first trip this past friday, to a place near Hawk Mountain. We were planning on seeing an owl banding, but that...didn't work out so well. Saw-whet owls, which we wanted to see, are rather small, and as it was rather windy friday night, they don't fly in the wind. So, the 7 of us, plus our awesome math-teacher-chaperone, basically sat in an unheated cabin from 7 to 11, playing 24 and this really cool game the teacher brought called Sets. I won my first 24 card! and it was a 3-dot!! it had a 9, a 2, a 6, and an 8. 9 times 2 divided by 6 times 8 is 24!!

anyway, despite the abundance of cameras and picture taking, I had a really good time and learned a lot about Saw-whet owls. they're the smallest owls in the upper eastern US, and only like 8 inches tall! I saw a few pictures, and they're so cute! >.<

so.... yeah that's about it. My family is going on vacation to florida/disney world this weekend, leaving on thursday and coming back on monday. so, I have the house to myself. I also have my ACTs on saturday, as well as being dragged to homecoming that night.

so..... byes!
<3 X3
Kat

yesterday/recent updates

Hi Peoples!
wow I haven't posted on here in forever......
so, um...news!

1) it has been proven that Tobi-kun is a meaniefacestupidhead that needs to die. or just get slapped really, REALLY hard. which I am going to do the next time I see him.

2) it really sucks when you have to tell one of your best friends her crush just broke her heart again

3) that being said, cheering her up with Sonar (Rover-kun), his epic bf, shopping, and asian food is really fun

4) reiterating it with more specificity: shopping with Sonar and Chibi-chan is EPIC. especially when Sonar goes into ubergay mode XD

5) through the situation stated above, I have acquired a prom dress. it is red, and needs some tailoring. but it was 20 bucks and Sonar and Chibi-chan wouldn't let me leave unless I bought it.

I love them so much haha

I love all my awesome friends....

<3 Kat X3

today/the last few days...

school started
it's mostly ok, but i love my AP chemistry class and it's teacher. he's like uber-nerd plus ninja!
i've started to get used to sleep deprivation again
and rachel's and my joint birthday party is tomorrow! ^^
just an update here. i haven't been on in forever.
I owe you all hugs. and maybe cookies.

lately....

Yesterday:
went to Rev Gen with Rachel and Kaitlyn (and Rachel's youth group). it was epic.
the Skillet performance in the end made me laugh, made me cry, and made me headbang so much my neck still aches.

Today:
I was doing summer homework when Chibi-chan and Tobi-kun called me. we went to the mall and hung out, then went to a restaurant by my house to eat dinner. After that, we went to Chibi-chan's house to watch Howl's Moving Castle, which both Tobi-kun and I love, and Chibi-chan hadn't seen.
at around the end of the movie, it was getting late, so it was decided that we had to go home. I didn't know the way to Tobi-kun's house, so Chibi-chan took him home and I just drove myself.
when I got home, I watched tv with my brother for a bit, then Chibi-chan called me.
right before she dropped Tobi-kun off at his house, he kissed her.
she wanted to tell me, especially how ironic it was seeing as she had gotten over her crush on him a while ago.
i have had a crush on him since the first time i met him.
she knew.
i don't want to infect her joy with my depression, but it hurts a lot more than i thought it would.

technically, YESTERDAY was my birthday, but...

I still consider it to be my b-day ^_^
I'm 17 today, and I gotta say, it feels like 16 :P
but today was pretty nice. I stayed over at a friend's house last night after she had her going-away party (she's going back to college) and it was too late for me to drive home.
We stayed up and talked until about 3 am, and then fell asleep until 8:30. well, I did. she was asleep until 2 in the afternoon. I left there around 3, and was only home a short time until Rachel visited and gave me something that made me want to hug her and cry at the same time. we hung out for a while and then she had to leave me.... :(
but we discussed having a joint birthday party, which I think would be totally awesome.

night night!

actually, good morning!
Kat

my uncle's funeral was today

It was kinda sad, and very Catholic. The incense made me sneeze. My aunt said a really sad, really nice eulogy.
the reception afterwards was full of food and family. and hugs.
I made a new friend on facebook, and whenever we talk I automatically smile.
Happy Birthday Cruz!! <3 youuu!!

that is all.
Bye bye! ^_^

not a happy couple of days for posting...

So I'm sure you all saw Rachel's post about her Poppop. She and I hung out the other day and I at least had a lot of fun. I drove home and arrived at an empty house, and promptly got on the computer. My dad got home, and he seemed kinda down, so I asked him if he was ok. My uncle had died that morning, and he only just found out. He wasn't feeling well a few days before, and one day he just... didn't wake up.

I don't even remember the last words I said to him.

I miss him.

late......

Hi peoples! I know it's late, but I HAD a blog post about my trip that I had been working on for about 3 days. When I clicked the 'Publish Post' button, my internet went down and I lost the whole thing.

England/France: was fun.

the end

Princeton!

Rachel and I just visited! It was..... ivy-league. And rather large. Well, not LARGE, per say, but expanded. and across the street from a LOT of shops. BUT!! Rachel came with me!!! So it was fun! Actually, I've never had a 2-hour car ride go by that fast or that fun! We listened to my iPod and talked in the backseat, while my dad drove. it was...pretty near awesome.
ALSO! THREE DAYS 'TIL ENGLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
X3

CREATION!!!

so...um... if you want details and exact stuff, just see Otaku-chan's blog. if you want random impressions that I got throughout the trip, stay here!!

Random impressions/thoughts:

1) angry short guys yelling at you to get married before you hit 25 are scary

2) ADD speakers are epic

3) washing dishes for 20 people doesn't suck that much as long as you're close to the water source and don't have soap on your hands, thus forcing you to ask a complete stranger if he could please turn the tap on for you

4) being a 16-year-old mother of about 12 6th-grade-and-younger kids sucks. which is one reason I was glad that Creation only lasted 4 days.

5) without sunscreen, even I will burn after 6+ hours in the sun per day

6) four days without any technology besides my camera is actually not that bad

7) christian bands are REALLY humble. and, in my experience, really nice ^_^

8) and also (for the most part) rather attractive :) (ex. Thousand Foot Krutch, Tenth Avenue North, and SKYHAWK DRIVE)

9) sharing a tent with Otaku-chan and my Conscience was fun!!

10) contrary to popular belief, 70,000+ people singing does NOT sound like noise. it sounds... pretty

11) for the most part, people at Creation are NICE! like, even in the quote-unquote 'mosh pit' in front of the stage, you could still breathe and move without socking people in the face

12) RED!!!!!!! LETTER BLACK!!!!!!!!!!! THOUSAND FOOT KRUTCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

13) a few words to describe the experience: interesting, varied, LOUD, expensive, and EPICALLY FUN!!

ugh... pictures...

I got my senior picture taken today. No, let me rephrase, I got my senior pictureS taken today. My appointment was at 11:30, so I showed up early and was immediately velcroed into a velvet straitjacket. well, technically it's called a 'gown', but it was basically a velvet curtain that they velcroed around me and scrunched up the front. It was just kinda awkward, since it was off the shoulder, so the lady that velcroed me slipped the straps of my tank top down (I wasn't allowed to do it haha). So then I sat in one of the seats of the auditorium, in my 'gown' until my appointment. Then I was called up for my sitting, and my photographer was really cool. She was cracking jokes and actually got me to genuinely smile for my pictures, which is pretty hard. So she took two just with the 'gown', one with a fake red rose, and one with a fake white rose. Then she took two with a fake graduation gown on, and one with just my casual clothes. Then I had to go to a different photographer for full-length, casual clothes shots. I nearly fell over a few times, but stayed on my feet! I was proud of myself haha

Then I went over to Lilac's house, and we hung out for a few hours. I was happy! We mostly just hung out at her house and talked, but it was really cool because we haven't done that forever.

Then I went home and blogged. The end!! X3

ah, the wonders of summer weekends....

even though I'll be spending the day alone in my house, I can get up as late as I want! 8:30 here I come!

so, today I:

-woke up at 7:30. work starts at 10:00

-had a very impatient person behind me, who seemed to be talking on her phone, drinking an iced coffee, and smoking a cigarette all at the same time as she was yelling at me and flipping me off

-had a very slow first hour, then a very busy second- and third-hours, which included:

1 curly-blonde-headed adorable little girl, who liked to throw books on the floor and who attempted to climb one of the shelves, deliberately kicking the books that belonged on that shelf onto the floor. her father (I assume) was in the next room and only looked up when the child was screaming

2 children who liked to ask me to find them books, then didn't look at them before rejecting them and telling me to put them back

3 people that had overdue fines in excess of 5 dollars, and who refused to pay them

and a family of 4 that consisted of: an adorable little girl of a toddler who wouldn't stop screaming until I gave her a sticker a boy who liked to empty out shelves of books and carry them around like he was going to check them out, until his mother made him pick a few, and dropped the others on the ground; a father that encouraged the boy to pick (and ultimately reject) more books; and a mother who didn't have a library card.

-the last hour was ok, our regulars came in and it was fine. except one of the ladies that came in read the Twilight series. she and I had similar opinions (great characters, so-so-and-lower everything else), except she was on Team Jacob. and I'm on Team Jasper-because-Edward's-a-sparkly-emo-who's-so-far-in-the-closet-he's-having-adventures-in-Narnia-and-Jacob's-too-good-for-Bella-so-she-should-just-disappear-to-the-Land-of-the-Mary-Sues-and-let-Jasper-and-everyone-else-be-semi-cool-on-their-own

then when I got home, I cleaned the living room, and watched Cats by Andrew Lloyd Weber. it was.... interesting and frankly quite confusing, but was really awesome. I mean, what's not to love about freakishly-flexible people in scarily-accurate makeup and skin-tight body suits with attached tails and nekomimi? wait, let me rephrase that. while odd, the play was excellently choreographed and the music was amazing, so regardless of the content and relative attractiveness of various characters, it was definitely worth seeing and I would like to see it live. there, that sounds more intelligent and less creeper-ish, right? anyway, just go here:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cats_(musical)

after that was done, another musical came on, called Once Upon A Mattress. think Princess And The Pea, only make the queen a scheming control-freak, the king a mute, the prince a complete mama's boy, and the princess basically like Fiona from Shrek. add musical numbers, choreography, and a dash of trippy, and there you have it!

anyway, now I am tired, and have to clean my room tomorrow, so night night!

i can't remember why i wanted to post....

but i remember that i wanted to, so i must have wanted to. so i most likely had something to say.

anyway, my little bro has a soccer tournament in... umm....... a place named after a chocolate bar-manufacturer, and he and my dad are gone until sunday. so while my mom was at work, i, having very little to do, watched tv, which seemed to consist of wedding shows. so i watched them. after my third consecutive episode of 'Bridezillas', i got to thinking..... what (if ever) would my wedding be like? and after switching between 'Say Yes to the Dress' and 'Bridezillas', i realized that if it ever happened, it would be odd. my mom hates shopping, and wouldn't look for a gown with me. i have no (biological) sisters (that i know of), so any and all bridesmaids will most likely be you guys (sorry!). and, all in all, i got to thinking about who would actually marry me. and, just as background, i'm reading 'Pride and Prejudice' right now, so it isn't helping my state of mind.

i came to the conclusion that i would most likely be a controlling, over-emotional bridezilla, and that i'd probably lose my friends, family, and fiance before the wedding. so sorry in advance (if it ever happens), guys! haha

anyway, today was the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!! so now we're all SENIORS!!!!!!!! w00t!!!!!!!!!

only, problem is:

-summer homework

+working over the summer

+stress of planning things

+having no clue what's happening day-to-day

+not being able to see you guys as often as i could (ToT)

+trying to have fun

+OHCRAPI'MASENIORNEXTYEAR

=stress. whee........

BUT! it's better than school. so ^_^

let the procrastination begin...

just got a facebook. yesterday.

distraction levels... over 9000!!!!!!!!!!

i got my hair cut yesterday... well, cut and dyed. dyed very dark, actually. now it kinda looks like i dyed my hair black. even though it's not black! it's dark brown! i swear...

anyway, had my english final today. it was... surprisingly easy. kind of like the chemistry final. actually, that's starting to worry me a bit......

and now that i'm thoroughly worried about tomorrow, i should probably be studying... or freaking out.

night night

om nom turtle... X3

I finally met Chibi-chan's love interest today. He was......... let us say, 'interesting'. And also, 'awesome'. Tobi-san (what I'll call him for now) is very funny and can do awesome accents. Also, he's Irish! And he can speak in a rather good Irish accent!

So.... summary of my weekend:

Friday: meh... don't remember.

Saturday: work.... slow.... annoying..... Then I went over to Chibi-chan's house (her parents are away for a long weekend) and she and I and her brother all went down to Ridley Park (like an hour away) to drop her brother off to a sleepover. All we had was Mapquest. There. Not back. So after Chibi-chan and I dropped him off, we drove around for about an hour trying to find our way back, then found a police station and asked a cop for directions. He gave us really good directions, but we took a wrong turn and didn't realize until it was too late, so we had to stop at a gas station and ask for more directions. We finally were on the right road, but then we missed an exit or something and ended up in Pottstown! Fortunately, we somehow passed Zern's, and I directed us back to my house from there so we could pick up my dad's GPS for when we had to pick Chibi-chan's brother up the next day (it took us an estimated 3 hours to get home and neither of us wanted to repeat that experience). My parents freaked and said that we couldn't do it because we were inexperienced (we didn't tell them we already did it once) and that it was a long drive and what if we got into an accident and all that stuff, so they decided that one of them would sit in the car with us. Not do anything, just sit there. After that, Chibi-chan went to the Collegeville diner at like 9 o'clock for dinner. She had chili, with a side of fries, and I had pasta primavera. It was pretty good.... especially when I dipped the fries in the sauce X) By the time we were done, it was around 10 or 10:30 and Chibi-chan was dead tired, so I drove us back to her house. I discovered that I hate minivans. Well, no. I dislike minivans, and much prefer my car. When we got back to Chibi-chan's house, we basically passed out after setting up my blanket-nest on the floor and talking until 1 am.

Sunday: After getting up at around 7, Chibi-chan and I fell back asleep until about 8. She was singing at church, so we had to be there early, around 9 o'clock. So we got ready and she drove over, arriving just in time for practice. Well, for Chibi-chan at least. I kinda... sat under a tree for most of it. Then Chibi-chan got a break and she found Tobi-san, who promptly quoted 'Leather Pants' and almost made her choke on her water. Then the whole church-thingy happened outside (I think it was a special event, there was a picnic afterwards. but I'll get to that later) and Tobi-san and I sat together with a spare chair for Chibi-chan when she was done and talked during the pauses. After church was over, we all went inside and ate lunch and talked... a lot. Then Chibi-chan said we had to go pick her brother up, and Tobi-san asked to come with us, so he did. We all went back to Chibi-chan's house to pick my stuff up, then drove to my house to pick up my dad, who was going to sit in the car with us and do nothing. The radio was being stupid, so I gave Tobi-san my iPod and iHome, and said he could do whatever he wanted. After he watched 'Final Fantasy VII Chibisters' and we all sang along, he played 'Leather Pants' and then some Evanescence, some Breaking Benjamin, and some other stuff too, which we (and by 'we', I mean Chibi-chan, Tobi-san, and me) sang along to. Tobi-san has a really nice voice.... anyway, the ride home was basically the same thing, and after Chibi-chan got to her house, I drove me and my dad home. Tobi-san stayed at her house and hung out. And then I was home. I did laundry and homework.

The end!!

...wait. I have a story. Not a particularly good story, and not a particularly happy- or sad-story, just a story.

Thursday was Senpai's last day. You guys remember Senpai? He's a friend of mine, a senior, and is going into the military. After he graduates, he's going to Kentucky for training camp. So on Thursday, I left my math class early as usual for tech, and I saw him in his class. We made eye contact and I smiled and waved, and walked on. Well, turns out he got a pass out of his class, and we met up at my locker. We talked, and he signed my yearbook, and I said that I was sad that he was going and that he better email me every once in a while to tell me he's not dead or hurt or anything, and he laughed and poked me. We hugged goodbye, and I...kissed him. On the cheek. I don't know why, I don't know how he reacted, I just kinda blushed and ran away, or well walked away as fast as I could in my boots. And later, I found that he broke up with his girlfriend before all that happened.

F.M.L.

anyway, night night!

wow...

I graduated last night. yup, you read it right, I graduated. from tech, that is XP

since Biotech is a one-year program, I 'graduated' from the program, not the school. of course, all of the other programs are four-year, so I was either the only or one of the very few juniors.

anyway, it was a cool ceremony, even though there were 225 of us it only lasted about an hour and a half, and I got to wear a black robe with a blue collar/ribbon-thingy, which made me feel like I was in Hogwarts. Ravenclaws w00t!

yeah... it was a pretty good day. I also attended the awards ceremony (that I DIDN'T need to dress up for) at PV and got my cop-out award, perfect attendance. Anyway, great job on your smart-person awards Kaitlyn and Rachel! i also got a free soft pretzel for my constancy.

AND! in chemistry, we made stuff explode. we and the AP class went outside and filled a trash can full of water. then, the teachers poured some liquid nitrogen into a soda bottle, screwed it shut, and chucked it into the trash can. the bottle swelled with the pressure of the liquid becoming a gas, and eventually, well... BOOM! it was pretty awesome..... until monotone-boy got depressed because he couldn't see my friend. and the problem is, when he gets sad, he gets sulky. it kinda reminded me of a puppy...

but yes. nothing much happened today, I was the only one in biotech, so i just fixed-and-cleaned the autoclave, helped stack up some boxes of stuff my teacher wanted to organize, and dissected a squid. it was pretty cool.....

night night! X3

speaking of turtles....

I saved-ed-ed one today!! i was coming home on the bus, and a couple hundred feet from my house i saw a turtle almost in the street! so as soon as i got off the bus, i dropped my bag and started sprinting to where i saw the turtle from the bus. i got there in time, so i am officially faster than the average turtle! (*silly grin coupled with overly-done anime-victory pose*) turns out, it was not a little turtle. or, for any intents and purposes, a happy turtle. it was also a snapping turtle. so, confronted with an angry snapping turtle that was a little less than a foot long and about six inches wide, i tried to nudge it out of the way with my converse-clad foot. it promptly sank its demonic turtle jaws into the rubber of my shoe. or tried to, at least. i got my foot out of the way and kicked it over, into the grass beside the road. and after it righted itself, the thing came after me! i thought turtles were supposed to be nice! anyway, the turtle, which i named Alfie (short for Alfred) and i basically had a standoff after that. it just sat there and stared at me, and i stood about three or four feet away and stared back. finally, someone from the township came and parked in the parking lot on the other side of the road, after waiting for a sufficient lapse in traffic, he got a shovel out of the back of his pickup truck and came over. after a few minutes of the turtle attacking the shovel and the guy alternately, he scooped it back up and took the satanic reptile away, saying that he'd put it in a nearby creek.

and THAT was my adventure today.

byes!! X3

Turtle is DEFINITELY nom!

Epic storm is going on..... well, just went on. it stopped now. after a five-minute torrential downpour and a three-minute power outage, it is now merely hot and sticky and annoying. my brother is monopolizing the wii, and i have that annoyingly awesome video in my head. and i just downloaded the song.

yes, i'm THAT much of a nerd haha

um...... not much else went on. besides going over to chibi-chan's house for a sleepover, and after everyone else (aka Kaitlyn and Rachel) left, i drove us to the nearest Rita's. I had a lemon water ice, and chibi-chan had a twist custard on a cone.

oh, AND! i'm rereading Yu Yu Hakusho. it's a shonen manga full of demon powers and actiony goodness. and Kurama. heehee..... I am a Kurama fangirl. I acknowledge this, but do not believe that it is a problem, so i'm not going to the meetings. now it would be a problem if he was real. by the way, i call Advent Children Sephiroth. Kaitlyn, you can have video-game sephiroth, but the movie one is MINE! i love his voice...... (chibi-chan+youtube=amusing oddness)

anyway, see ya!

wait, i don't actually see anyone but Kaitlyn and Rachel off of here, so if anyone else actually reads my blog, um..... comment ya?

yeah.... let's try this again...

anyway, read your comments (if any haha) later!

envirothon!!

so.... yesterday was the state envirothon competition. the team (and our advisor) left tuesday after school, and we drove for like three hours until we got to the hotel. by that time, it was about eight thirty and we hadn't eaten, so we drove around for about half an hour before finally deciding to eat at Friendly's. I got a burger and fries, and Fish (my bestest envirothon friend and only other female on the team) and I got two-scoop one-topping sundaes. we all went back to the hotel, and Fish and I filled our ice bucket and stayed up until around 1 or 2 am talking. then we got up at around seven (well, I did. Fish got up around 6 or 6:30-ish). it was decided the night before that we would all meet for breakfast at 7:30, so we could get to the grounds before the competition started at 9. Rover decided that we were going to be earlier for the competition, so he called me at 7 and told us that he and the boys were at breakfast. by the way, this was without the consent of our teacher. or the other members. needless to say, I was rather angry at him, and the fact that he was completely self-centered and unapologetic only added to my annoyance.

the test was..... rather hard. and very long. and the day was quite hot and sunny. i got rather tan. but anyway, at the end, we finished and ended up 26 out of 66 teams. well, 65. one of the teams was disqualified because two members had their cellphones out. but still, we were in the top half, and 10 places higher than our rank last year, which was our goal (the top-half part). so that was pretty good.

um...... that's really all. nothing much interesting happened today. except for the fact that we have off school tomorrow and monday!

X3

wow.... epic fost-pail!

work yesterday was rreeeaaalllyyy slow.... it felt like forever!

oh, and i drove to work. alone! it was nice... except there was a festival-thingy today, and someone decided to park two feet behind me. another person parked about six inches in front of me. beside a 'no parking' sign. took me like four tries to get out. i felt like leaving a note on the car in front of me saying "Park a little closer next time". but i didn't. i had no pen. or paper. T.T

on a different-but-similar note, CONGRATS RACHEL!! Rachel applied for a summer job at the library, and she was hired!! we're work-buddies!

then that night, my family and two friends-of went to dinner. it was me and my brother and our parents, and my brother's best friend and his mom. we went to red lobster. it was really expensive, but there's something really satisfying about getting the meat out of crab legs yourself. plus they let me combine sprite and lemonade in my cup. and it was from the fountain! free refills yes!

AND i got to hang out with Rachel this weekend! friday night (the 14th) was 5/14, so her youth group had 514 day! they follow i think it's Matthew 5:14, which says something that can be loosely interpreted as 'teenagers are the light of the world', so may 14th is a big day. there was rita's water ice and soft pretzels and games and (ugh!) pictures. everyone stood in the shape of 514 and a circle with a flamey-thingy in the middle. in contrast to nearly everyone else, who was wearing red (the flamey-thingy) or black (everything else), i was wearing white. and i stood in the front of the picture. the circle, to be exact. whee visibility.

oh yeah, and friday was..... interesting. in biotech, we had our end-of-year 'special learning activity' which means 'party'. see, administration only allows 1 'party' per year, so we periodically have 'special learning activities' that happen to involve food. so my teacher brought in all sorts of food and means by which to cook it, and had us prepare breakfast from raw ingredients! i was on the pancake station, and the juice/smoothie station. and since we didn't have any means by which to toast stuff, i grilled bread and english muffins. oh, and since i actually like washing dishes and things like that, i was also the clean-up person. it all went really well, and in the end i ate in that two hours more than i eat in a normal day. but it was goooddd -.- ...it was also kind of awkward. one of the adults in the class (there are 4 of them) was talking about his son. apparently, he looks kind of like Chase Utley. what does he look like? (help pwease!!). and apparently if i were a year older, he would introduce me to his son, who is 19. awkward? very much so.

so today was... interesting. i woke up at around 8:30, and then fell back asleep until about 10. everyone was gone. so i got dressed, did a load of laundry, finished my homework, and got a call from my dad around 1. he basically told me to drive to the farm (a long-time friend of his has a 100-acre farm about forty minutes from my house) and wait for him. i got there, and he and my brother drove up, and got into my car. they had come from my brother's soccer tournament, which his team won. my dad directed me to a park near my grandmother's house, and it turns out that there was a family-reunion/mother's-day-party. so there was about 60-100 people in the park, most of whom i was related to. the only significant group that was not boyfriends/girlfriends of cousins/aunts/uncles, was my grandmother's friend's family. apparently, they used to live down the street from each other, so the families grew up as friends. so the friend brought his two sons, who had about 7 or 8 children between them. most were below the age of 10. actually, all but two were. one was a girl, she was about 13 or 14, and the other was a (frankly rather attractive) 17 year old guy. i think his name was Richie... or maybe Rich. anyway, i mostly hung out with one of my aunts (i have about 16-18. never really counted.) and about 4 or 5 of my cousins. they came and went, so the number changed. anyway, that aunt's really crafty, so she brought like 100 skeins of embroidery thread/cord. she also brought different patterns for making friendship bracelets, but those were really lengthy and annoying, so we stopped after around 5 minutes of trying. then we got the idea to braid the cords together, and i crocheted mine with my fingers. then a different aunt's crazy (boy)'friend' came over and played really obscure songs, while we listened politely and ignored him. when he was gone, Richie, who was sitting nearby (we were on a blanket on the ground, he was in a plastic chair a few feet away) asked if he was in a band. i said "i really hope not" (he kinda....sucked. no offense intended, but it was weird). then i asked why and he told me that he was looking for a band. boy plays guitar (acoustic and electric), piano, AND harmonica! i basically said "wow" and mentioned something about just being able to sing. apparently he was looking to join a band. i invited him to make bracelets with us, and he accepted and joined us on the blanket. he then revealed to me that he didn't know how to braid. i told him to pick three colors (he picked red, gold, and dark blue) and asked him to tie a knot in the top. after about five to ten minutes of trying, he showed me his knot. he tied the three separate strands together individually. i corrected the knot for him, and taught him the basic motions for braiding three strands (bring the outside strands into the middle. over and over and over and over etc). he eventually finished his braid, and i helped him tie a knot in the end. he proceeded to attempt to tie it around his own wrist, and after trying (and failing) about three times, asked me to tie it for him. i agreed and tied it for him, blushing slightly internally when he said something about it being like a marriage ceremony (he helped me tie my bracelet earlier).

and then i came home and blogged. the end!

d(^_^)b

news.... stuff

1) I presented my grad project to the class yesterday. I was really nervous, and had to dress really nice all day 'cause I got graded on appearance, so that didn't help. I almost went over the time limit (20 minutes. I stopped at just short of 19), but apparently I was good. I actually got a really good bit of advice from my ever-awesome english teacher, about just adopting a character and playing them. I suppressed myself, and played a character instead. And apparently the character was good.

2) I got my drivers' license! Took my test at 8:30 today (I was the first appointment scheduled). It was actually not that bad, I parallel parked first, and only tapped the curb. Then I had to go out onto the road, and almost crashed into the back of a minivan that pulled out in front of me, but managed to swerve around it. The rest went ok, and when it ended, the examiner just said "You passed" and got out of the car. I had to get my picture taken, and fill out a few forms, but I got back to school right before third period started.

Yeah...that's really all. nothing much else happened lately.

so..... um..... nightnight!

post-prom+Kaitlyn's post

herro everyone! yeah, i'm TIRED!!

so... post-prom. everyone went over to chibi-chan's house earlier (like, when real prom started), and she made us dress up. i wore a black and white dress over blue leggings and my boots. there were a lot of M&M's!!

so after everyone was there (me, Chibi-chan, Otaku-chan, Manga-dealer-chan, Fish-chan, and Loud-kun), we had tacos and watched Sherlock Holmes (which Loud-kun brought)

then, at around 10:30, Rachel arrived and we all went to the school (which is about 5 mins from chibi-chan's house) and went to post prom. well, all of us except chibi-chan (who forgot ID) and Rachel (who forgot her sign-in papers). they told us to go on, so we went into the new gym, which had three HUGE inflatable thingamajiggers. one was like a maze (where Loud-kun won against Fish-chan and Manga-dealer-chan won against me), one was like a rock wall (didn't go on that one), and one was like a spin off of dodgeball. it was like two corridors seperated by a mesh wall, and each was divided in half by another mesh wall. on one side of the wall, there was nothing, but on the other side there was a bag full of the kind of balls that are in a ball-pit, and also a padded belt attatched to a bungee cord. the point of the game was to try and hit the person on the bare side of the wall (i.e. me or MD-chan) with the balls on the other side, but the thrower (i.e. Loud-kun or Fish-chan) had to go against the pull of the bungee cord to get close enough to the holes in the mesh wall to throw accurately. i don't know about MD-chan, but for some reason, i hit Loud-kun more than he hit me! it was kinda cool.....

then we went upstairs and into the cafeteria, which was set up like a combo mock-casino, dining area, and karaoke-place all in one. with a lot of free space in the middle. anyway, after winning 5 bucks at a dice table, we signed up for the raffle. i put a few tickets in for various coupons, and divided the rest between a laptop and a nintendo DSi. then Kaitlyn and i went off for an adventure ourselves, we half-finished a checker game and then went down to hear the band that was playing. by then i was getting worried about Chibi-chan and Rachel not being there, so i went to wait for them and left a lot of nearing-hysterical messages. then we all... well, i don't really remember. but we went to get airbrush tattoos and i got two (the character for love on my left wrist, and the character for eternity on my right). i'm actually thinking about getting a real tattoo like that...... also, skeeball was involved, and both pina coladas and strawberry daquaris made with rita's water ice (with mini-umbrellas in them!) were as well. i went down alone after a while to listen to a band i knew, but they started playing music that wasn't my taste (Scandinavian industrial, to be exact), so i left and found the others, who were playing the word-song game. after a very short round of truth-or-dare and another of 'never have i ever', it was time for announcements like who won the raffles and stuff like that. Rachel won.... something.i don't really know what it was, but it had '$40.00' written on it!! and Fish-chan won a set of speakers and a flash drive (she gave me the flash drive and sold the speakers to Loud-kun), and Chibi-chan won the DSi! and all was good..... except Lilac and Rover were having a bit of a problem. well, more specifically, Lilac was having a bit of a problem with Rover completely ignoring her.

oh, and i don't remember exactly when, but these were also during post prom:

-completely failing at air-hockey against Loud-kun

-chibi-chan WINNING at karaoke

-somehow convincing Monotone-boy that i was alternately on shrooms or 'marajoowana' (he started it, not me)

-and having a completely EPIC game of air-hockey with Otaku-chan. she ended up winning!

so then we had to go, and i went back Chez Chibi-chan. i slept in their guest room until about 8 or nine. then stayed until my dad picked me up around 6

oh yeah, and i also took the SATs yesterday before post-prom. they..... weren't as bad as i thought they were gonna be. we'll see if that's a good or a bad thing when i get my scores...

Post for Kaitlyn:

this actually started out as a comment, so i'm gonna copy-paste that in first:

i know the feeling. not the God part, but the loneliness and fear and sadness and self-loathing and coldness. and i feel privileged to be able to see inside your head, even if just for a minute (i read fast, remember? X3).

i'm really glad that you're starting to feel better about yourself and your 'fate', and just want you to know that if you ever need to talk to anyone, just call me or randomly show up at my house, ok? i mean, you're gonna be able to drive soon, right? (hinthint).

or you can talk to Rachel. it was in her that i found peace, and comfort, and maybe belief that i'm not just fat and ugly and a terrible person and over-emotional and pitiful and contemptable and worthless.

just..... don't give up, ok?

and now for the elaboration...

look, i know i'm probably not the best person to give advice like this, but Kaitlyn, you are perfect. isn't there a Bible verse somewhere that says 'You saw me in my mother's womb, you made me in the secret place. (i can't remember this part...), for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.' Kaitlyn, if God really is as good as everyone believes He is, and if He really is as great as He's believed to be, there is a reason that you feel the way you do. Maybe it's a message, maybe it's to make you stronger, but there has to be a reason. If God created you, and made you to be perfect the way you are, then why do you feel bad about yourself? isn't that like telling an artist that his masterpiece is all wrong? look, i know you're not perfect, and that perfection is such an aspect of our daily life. "lose weight and you'll be happy" "i tried this product and it made my life better" "get perfects on your SATs or you'll never be able to accomplish anything in your future" "the way you are now isn't good enough, do this and you'll be better" all those voices are screaming and point fingers, yelling "imperfect!" "flawed!" "different!" "BAD!!". but there's one voice that's whispering so quietly that you have to strain to listen, saying "Perfection is fleeting, I am eternal. Be happy, and you're the most beautiful person in the world. Society isn't what made you, I am. and I love you, for you are my beloved, my individually perfect, my creation." Kaitlyn, isn't that what God says?

I know that sometimes His voice can get lost in the overwhelming tide of life, but it's still there, isn't it?

Kaitlyn, i am far from perfect. i don't even know if God exists, let alone if he loves me. i can't imagine anyone, anything loving someone as pitiful and as worthless as me. i've tried to take my life once before, and seriously considered it too many times to count. i used to cut, but i stopped. and now i did it again. i keep scratching at old scars until i bleed again. i try to drive people away, they're too precious to hurt, but i end up hurting myself in the process. i don't want people to care, because that's what hurts me most of all. i'm weak. i'm fat. i'm ugly. i'm cold. i'm cruel. i'm over-emotional. i'm unsavable. i'm pitiful. i'm worthless. i'm unlovable. and i don't hear God's voice. i hear Rachel's.

Kaitlyn, if God created the universe, and everything in it, why did He create you? He could have created anyone; another Leonardo DaVinci, another JRR Tolkein, another Shakespeare, anyone. but He created you instead.

yeah... the past week has been....... yeah.

I was right in a previous post. this week WAS hellish. just... not in the way i thought.

but i'm not gonna talk about that right now. the first half of this post is for happy (-ish) things!

so chibi-chan's holding an anti-prom party on saturday night, and we have to dress 'nice'. i don't know how 'nice' to dress. help please?

then we're going to post-prom after, so it should be fun. prom=spending rather exorbitant amounts of money to feel like a third wheel, post prom=spending NO money to feel like a third wheel and hang out with other third wheels.

and yes Kaitlyn, it IS yay that i got my stitches out. it didn't hurt (except when the one that scabbed over was unceremoniously pulled out), it just felt...weird. instead of thread, they used fishing line-like stuff to sew me up, so it was just a pulling feeling.

ummmmmm *searching for more good stuff*

oh yeah! i found a silly band on the floor the other day. you know, those shaped rubber bands? i found a pear! though people think it's a whale.....

oh, and LAST SECTION OF PSSAs IS OVER!!!!!!!! except the writing one that i have to make up. but that doesn't count. my last pssa ever!!!!!

and my biotech final was not as bad as i thought it would be. not sure if that's a good or a bad sign... but apparently my entire class relies on me to know everything so they can ask me questions that they don't know.

as for the in between stuff, my english teacher told me that she and Rachel spoke. about me. again, not sure if that's a good or a bad thing...

now for the not-so-good stuff. i really don't want to put this on here, but i made a promise to myself, and i trust you guys that you won't copy-paste this to your facebook or anything.

i nearly broke this week. a lot of stuff happened, and was supposed to happen. right now, i'm supposed to be in a hotel room with the girls from science olympiad. unfortunately, i was not made aware of the deadlines, and thus could not meet them. so i couldn't go. that, plus i was really stressed about my biotech final, my SAT's on saturday, post prom, and presenting my grad project on tuesday, my drivers test on that wednesday, and the senior grad proect expo (aka 8 hours of formal presentations) on the 11th. plus i wasn't allowed to take pain medication for my thumb. i really don't want to say this, but i honestly considered taking as many tylenol as i could or trying to get an addiction. i just didn't know how else to cope with the pain.

emotionally distressed

most likely depressed

suicidal and

clinging to apathy as the mortar that holds my crumbling facade together

that's me!

well, i got my stitches out...

and my Biotech final's tomorrow. and i haven't studied.

i'll post more tomorrow...

working on posting more...

Response to comments:

Rachel: I haven't named him yet! suggestions please? kaitlyn: i would have laughed my HEAD off if i heard Birdman say that. and no, i don't think Sween even noticed him!

anyway, i'm going to tell you guys about my day. writing PSSA's whoo. because of envirothon, we missed the first day, so i started the section that i missed. after getting a very stern look from the proctor (my chemistry teacher haha), i actually worked on the section that we were supposed to do, answering a prompt about 'Online classes versus In-school classes'. i finished in about 15 minutes, and sat and read for the remaining 45. oh, and i listened to music, though my earbuds broke (they only make sound out of the left one), so i had to wear my aviator headphones. it was kinda weird, because i was wearing my green envirothon shirt, a red hoodie, my red headphones, and my ipod's green! i felt like christmas in july! well, more like christmas in april, but still!

so math i took the first half of my final exam, because we have a lot of seniors that are leaving for job shadowing in early may. the second half is tomorrow. and biotech i'm not allowed to work with bacteria 'cause of my cut. it made me sad.... T.T

but i had to leave early from biotech today because i had to renew my passport, and so did Rachel's Biotech-Boy. i'll call him..... FHoR. yeah, FHoR fits. (Future Husband of Rachel XP). so he had to leave at the same time, and it was nice, because the teacher lumped us together from the beginning so we wouldn't leave other partners stranded, and even though i wasn't allowed to touch anything, i had to wear sterile gloves, and he helped me put the left one on over my splint. and he also discovered the wonders of two things, pasteur pipettes (apparently, they make a funny noise when squeezed, so he alternated between following me and following his friend around while holding it about two inches from our ears), and a test-tube clamp. it kinda looked like a cyborg-velociraptor hand, with two prongs on one side and one on the other that fit between them. he enjoyed clamping it onto things (including the faucet and myself), then stuck it inside his sleeve and made pterodactyl noises for a while, when i pointed out that he was imitating the wrong dinosaur, he attacked me with a hot-mitt (a flexible rubber cup that goes over your hand when you handle hot stuff). i fended him off with a rubber duck, then he took it and clamped its head in the cyborg-velociraptor clamp. then we had to go, and he actually waited for me and held the door open (*gasp!* perhaps chivalry's rigor mortis is not complete yet!)! then we walked out, talking first about sports (and how much they hate me), then about classes. apparently, AP Calculus is actually easier than Honors Calc! he swore it was true, and i'm going to trust him and talk to my counseler. i swore that i would hunt him down if he was lying, to which he replied "you'd need a facebook!". to which i wrinkled my nose at him and waved bye-bye.

post over, night night!

Kat

good news and... slightly-less-than-good news

good news first!!!

the nerd-club (aka envirothon) team that i was on won the county competition today!! we placed first in four of the five categories (current-event-also-known-as-groundwater, wildlife, aquatics, and forestry!) forestry's my event, and we got a 76 when all the other teams got less than 55!! so that was reassuring. also, in wildlife, we had to identify birdcalls, and Birdman identified one as a blue jay. it turned out that it was a mockingbird imitating a blue jay. he argued, and we got that point! so arguing DOES work! also, we all (all three teams from our school) had lunch together in the sun outside the pavilion, just sitting on the ground and talking while we ate. Chibi-chan made brownies, Fish (the aquatics person on my team and one of my best friends in elementary school) made sugar cookies, and i made candy, so we passed everything around and talked and it was literally one of the best days i've ever had. there was just something about being able to talk and good-naturedly tease and relax around people that just seemed like a breath of fresh air to me. i zoned out and dozed off a bit laying in the grass, in the sun. and with Rachel and Kaitlyn and Chibi-chan and Manga-dealer-chan around me, i just felt... safe i guess. also, like Otaku-chan, i have a few interesting stories from today.

1) we had to identify two different trees for forestry. after deciding that one was definately a red oak, we moved on to the other. in order to identify this tree, Birdman (who is also in my group) decided to break of a leaf and stick it in his mouth. he abruptly yanked it out of his mouth, yelling 'ah, tastes like a b*expletive!!*h!'. then he spat repeatedly. we later found the tree to be a hickory, which is (thankfully) not poisonous in the least. Birdman reportedly had the taste in his mouth until lunch, when he gargled with Sprite.

2) this pales in comparison to Birdman's win/fail, but winning was pretty cool. we were called up for winning aquatics individually, then the lady that was announcing it told us 'you might as well just stay up here', then announced us the winners of the other three events.

3) oh yeah, and i think this trumps all for now. we got free t-shirts from the envirothon people, and the teacher that supervises us told us to all gather around a tree for a group picture. Birdman was not there to hear her say that, so he was walking up to where we were while we were walking away. Rover (the soil-person on my team) yelled to him 'take off your jacket and get over here!' because he had a jacket on over his shirt, but he didn't hear him. so i just told him 'Birdman, just strip and follow us'. he laughed and proceeded to jokingly over-dramatically take off his jacket. oh, and once the picture was taken, we all walked over to the 2-3 picnic tables under the pavilion that we claimed as ours, and i took off my envirothon shirt because it was hot and i just wanted to wear the shirt i already had on. Rachel was walking around taking pictures, and she tried to take one of me. i looked at her flatly and asked her if she was actually going to take a picture of me stripping. after that, one of the girls in a different team but who was also from our school (i don't have a nickname for her yet) came up behind me and started to make the sounds that often come when exaggerated-stripping occurs, like the 'mph-tss mph-tss' sounds. i don't really know how else to describe it, but it just added to the awesomeness of the day.

4) when the teacher made us take another picture after we recieved our awards (we placed 1, 2, and 3), a kid from another team from another school came up behind her and gave her moose antlers, then bunny ears. it was the icing on top of the cake of a perfect day, and it extracted genuine smiles from the tired group that we made.

oh yeah, the not-so good news. on sunday night, around 8 o'clock (after i already made the candy that i brought to envirothon), i somehow managed to put a kitchen knife through my thumb. i was chipping hard caramel out of the bottom of a baking dish (recipe was off and it dried too hard for me to use) with a knife instead of using a spatula. i went to the er, and ruined two dishtowels and about half a roll of paper towels in the ride over. the er was pretty packed, so i was there pretty late, but it was ok. when i got treated, i got three x-rays to make sure that i didn't chip the bone in my thumb or anything (i didn't), then got about 5-6 ccs of a pain medication that blocks the sodium-potassium exchange in nerve cells, thus deadening them. the only reason i know that is that i had to keep talking to the physician that sewed me up so i wouldn't be screaming and crying hysterically (the pain meds didn't work so well), and he was quite forthcoming with information. i got three stitches where the knife went in, and two where it came out. they're loose so it can drain, but i saw them when i took off the dressing last night, and they didn't look too bad. they stopped bleeding, anyway. oh, and according to the physician, i only lost about half a cup of blood in the whole thing, which isn't that bad at all, considering the average adult has about 6 pints of blood in their body. oh, and because i was so good, i got a boo-boo bear! it's just a stuffed teddy-bear with a bow around his neck, but i lubs him ^_^

sorry if the description is a bit... descriptive, but i need this as much for my memory as it is for you guys, and blood and stuff doesn't weird me out too much. if no like, no read!

byes!

Kat

the silence is broken

today (well, yesterday actually X3. i'm writing this at 1 am) was the national day of silence. today, people around the country took an oath not to speak, to symbolize all of the voices not being heard in the LGBT community. today, many normally talkative people were eerie silent. it was both inspiring and scary.

anyway, today was... interesting. i randomly dressed up, and Rachel i swear it WAS random! don't look for any hidden/special meaning in it! i was participating in the day of silence, so i used a page of my agenda book and about two pages of one of my notebooks communicating with various people (mostly monotone-boy and chibi-chan, two members of a very select group of people that can read my handwriting). so apparently not wearing jeans under a dress, and wearing boots instead of converse dramatically changes my appearance, because i had two people (that are not my dear friends) call me 'pretty' today. oh, and Rachel called me 'sexeh'. not sure what that meant.......

but chemistry was good. we went over a worksheet that monotone-boy and i finished the day before, so he and i wasted paper with random conversation. oh, and chemistry-boy had to dress up for some reason, so he looked like a substitute teacher (black dress shoes, khaki pants, blue pinstripe button-down, red-and-black tie, and a gecko tie pin. i wanted that tie pin.). i informed him of that fact.

english, everyone (including the teacher) was participating in the day of silence, except for about 4 people, so we listened to music on the teacher's computer's speakers and i put in my ipod and zoned out for 45 minutes.

social studies: as usual, the astounding stupidity of my fellow human makes me ashamed to share a species with some of the specimens in that class. no offense to them, but from not knowing to what 'disregard' meant to attempting to make people that were participating in the Day, let it suffice to say that i was annoyed. but anyway, we watched a movie, so i read and zoned out.

math was nothing special, just normal stuff. we're having our final really early though, so we're starting to prepare for that.

biotech was fun though. after washing glassware for about half-an-hour (which i actually like), we had a short powerpoint of notes, then played with dry ice for the rest of the time. after getting a flask of very hot water, we dumped a bunch of solid CO2 chips in it and held a latex glove over it. there's videos of it exploding on facebook. i think. but anyway, after about the third glove, i decided to put a face on one, so we tried to blow that one up, but it didn't work, so we jabbed it with a pen to make it pop. and pop it did.

then, when everyone had left, there was still a bit of dry ice, so my teacher let me fill another beaker with more hot water and add that. after spending a few minutes in blissful contemplation of the 'fog' that erupted from the mouth of the flask, i decided to add food coloring to the water, so it looked like a dark blue solution was producing this white, misty fog. it. was. awesome. i think someone in the lab got a picture, so if i get it, i'll post it (if i can figure out how to do that)

nightnight

kat

you keep saying that you'll be there to catch me, so why are you constantly out of arms' reach...?

april 19-may 12= my hell

yeah. april 20th, envirothon county competition

april 29-30th, science olympiad state competition

may 1st, SAT's and post prom

may 5th, my driving test

and to wrap it all up,

may 11th, i present my graduation project. and my write-up was due today. and guess who forgot to turn it in?

that's really all that's happened lately. oh, and my friend's boyfriend (monotone-boy) just transferred to my chemistryclass. apparently, he was too smart for the prep class he was in before, and it took the school three marking periods to notice that and move him. he is now my new lab partner. so yeah, now i have two former (i think. it's... complicated lol) crushes in the same class. yay me.

better news:

i signed up for post prom! i'm not going to prom (don't want to spend $65 on a ticket, plus whatever a dress is, just to feel like a third wheel for 5 hours straight lol), especially right after i take my SAT's, but post prom sounds fun. there's gonna be a scavenger hunt and a masseuse and a 'casino' that isn't real and free food and airbrush tattoos! i wonder what i should get as my tattoo.... yes i'm definitely getting one X)

and signing up for post prom got me a free facial-thingy from a Mary Kay person. i know, *gasp* katherine doing something feminine?! BLASPHEMY!!!! well, i know. can i go with someone else? my mom probably won't let me lol

and i found a cool song, it's called 'Colors of the Rainbow' by dj septik. it's a bit over-synced, but i like the chorus. oh, and it has a few curse words in it, but i don't really mind.

actually, i found quite a few good songs. when my friend had to leave english class to go to a band practice (she plays the clarinet), her boyfriend and i were left alone. after a few minutes of conversation, the topic turned to our mutual love of rock/metal music, and we shared his ipod for the rest of the class. it felt..... i don't know. i can't really describe it. but i think it was sad more than anything...

*this is at 10:47 at night*

I just came up with something, that i think is rather good. it's about 'the box'. you know, as in 'think outside the box'? here's what people have to say about the box:

children: what box? can i play in it?

teenagers: we can't escape the box. the box is reality!

writers: i wonder what would happen if we make the box a triangle...

the school system: feel free to paint the inside of the box as pretty as you want, as long as you stay inside it. for your own protection of course. (can you tell i don't like our educational system?)

the world: there is no box.

me: heh heh. boxen.... (brian regan reference)

wow..... post-fail

Hey everyone! I got back from visiting MIT and Harvard!! MIT was nice, but Harvard.... eh, in my opinion it's full of snobs. no offense, Harvard-peeps. but it just felt like they were saying "Yeah, we're Harvard. We don't have to move on, we were on top, and everyone knows us. The end." Whereas MIT was saying "Sure, we're not at the top, but we're getting there! Oh look, we're on top! Now let's make being the best even better!"

Yeah, but sharing a car with chibi-chan for a total of about 17 hours (10 on the way up, 7 on the way back), and sharing a hotel room with her, I was pretty chibied-out. Now don't get me wrong, I love my chibi, but you know how you can love someone and want to strangle them?

Oh, and I just got a letter from the school. Apparently, I'm obese. Happy Easter, right?

Happy Easter everyone! Hope it sucks less than mine!!!

well yesterday was... eventful. (corgi-chan=chibi-chan)

hi everyone! the past few days hasn't been that eventful, except for yesterday. so I'm just gonna talk about that.

so, yesterday I got up at 7 o'clock, and got ready for- nope, not work. Instead, I went to Franklin and Marshall College in Lancaster with Kaitlyn!! it was fuunnnn.

anyway, back to the story.

so after a very weird hour-long car ride, we finally arrived at the campus. then, after the opening-ceremony-thing, we had a campus tour! they have TWO LIBRARIES!!! and awesome (though rather small) dorms!!! AND AN ALCOHOL-FREE PUB!!!!!! called 'Ben's Underground'! how cool is that?

then after that, we had lunch and got to choose the presentation that we went to next. Kaitlyn and I went to 'Interview/Essay Do's and Don'ts', and the presenters were so cool! you could tell that they had worked together for forever, they were almost like a comedy routine!

then we went to 'Academics and Housing' and the presenters were awesome AGAIN! there was a really nerdy guy, a nerd-that-didn't-look-much-like-a-nerd lady, and another nerdy guy! they were awesome!!!!

then, after a performance by their a capella choir, they had the closing-ceremony-thing and gave out cookies!

t'was quite awesome...

then, when i got home at around 5, i had to start on my homework and eat dinner quickly, because i went to the play too! our school did Disney's Beauty and the Beast, and it was really good. the only downfalls:

-i pre-ordered tickets, so i got vouchers. they lost my ticket. so when i presented the voucher, they had to give me some random ticket that didn't go anywhere.

-people had sat where i intended to sit and wouldn't move, so i had to sit in the seats way off to the side and thus compromise my view

-i went with my friend's creepy-goofy-boyfriend, who i am not allowed to call creepy or goofy anymore. which was really awkward because i had a bit of a crush on him in the beginning of the year before he was going out with my friend. and when i told my english teacher that in a fit of venting, she told me that he and i would be much better suited to each other. it was actually pretty fun, we have the same sense of humor, so we were making comments to each other through out the entire play. except in intermission, some lady came over to us and yelled at us because we were 'talking too loud'. we could barely hear each other and she sat on the opposite side of the aisle. it was also kind of sad (for me at least). he doesn't like dark or enclosed places, so he actually had two or three panic attacks during the play. i tried to help bring him out of them like i do with you Rachel (except instead of hugging him i rubbed his shoulder), and he said that i didn't need to, that he usually brings himself out of them by re-reading texts that he and his girlfriend (my friend) sent each other. i feel so heartbroken for him because it seems he relies on her to validate his existence, and i don't think she has as much invested in the relationship as he does.

-and after that long and drawn out point/confession, i will complain of one more thing: corgi-chan convinced me to come to the local diner with the cast/crew, which they do after all of the shows. my 'date' and his girlfriend also went. my goodness, did i feel bad for those waitresses. can you imagine having over 50 theater people in your restaurant at midnight, all very excited from a show well done and all very hungry, wanting separate checks? i didn't even get anything (that they charge for) and i felt terrible... and it took them over an hour to get anything out though, and all most of the table wanted was water! and then only corgi-chan and i got our water, but no one else did, so she shared with the friend who she was sitting next to and i split it with the guy who sat across from me. he was nice... and wearing a panama hat. and he had really good taste in books. and could do accents quite well. though i felt so stupid, whenever he and i spoke, he would speak in an accent and i would reply in the same accent! i felt like i was mocking him! but he was nice about it.

ok, that's really everything.... oh wait! i got new curtains in my room! they match my walls!

ok, NOW i'm done

...no i'm not. Rachel, what number was i supposed to read? i forgot T.T

dang... now I'm the one not posting!!

HI EVERYONE!!! *waves happily*

I have good news!!!!

I GOT A SUMMER JOB!! yes, I know what you're thinking... I already have a job. but I got another! I'm going to work a few days a week at the local scuba shop, probably either in front talking to people, or in the back doing paperwork. but I'm still happy! even if I don't get payed in real money... I get 8 scubabucks an hour, which counts towards anything I want to buy in the shop or go on trips or anything. I didn't take the job to earn money, it's really just to keep me off the streets (lol).

So we finished 'program planning' on Friday. The school decided to make all the freshmen, sophomores, and juniors decide what classes they're going to do next year in the middle of this one. Oh yeah, and I'm getting emails from stores telling me about prom. I hate prom... but maybe I'll go to postprom. Especially if IVS (the scuba shop I'm going to work for) comes again and lets us to a 'discover scuba' thing in the pool. I may find myself a scuba-buddy!

But other than that, nothing really important happened. ooh, except there's a Harry Potter marathon going on right now! I LOVE HARRY POTTER!!!

oh, and I may get a facebook. well, I may have one thrust upon me. senpai decided that he would make me one and email me the username and password. but I'm not sure if that's happening...

in other news, I GOT A NEW PHONE!! AND (albeit very limited) TEXTING!!!!!! TWENTY-FIRST CENTURY, HERE I COME!!!

yeah... um...

the end!

*pitiful whining voice* why is no one posting?!?!?!?!

I am sad. well, actually I am stressed. which I will explain later.

Rachel: how was your dentist appointment today? i missed you this morning!

Kaitlyn: i will TOTALLY cosplay with you to go see the college. when should we get together and make our costumes? *GASP!* what manga/anime/game should we cosplay from? *BIGGER GASP!* WHO SHOULD WE COSPLAY AS?!?!

Anyway, back to my and my life (wow. way to sound selfish, self.)

THE ASIANS CAME TODAY!!!!!!! yaaayyy!!!!! }--- explanation: the japanese exchange students that both Manga-dealer-chan and Chibi-chan (as well as a whole bunch of other people) are hosting arrived yesterday! so Chibi-chan and her host-sister sat at the lunch table today! it was awesome!!! though i think we may have scared her a bit...

BUT! we had cake today! someone (i shall call him... Loud. yes. Loud. not Cloud! he's not that cool. just...Loud.) was bored yesterday, so he made BROWNIE CAKE and covered it in GREEN ICING for St. Patricks day!! so yes, i actually ATE today!

Chemistry-boy and I have yet to resume our Go-fish tourney, so chemistry was boring. and I was elected Co-Author of the of the movie script in English along with goofy-creepy-monotone-boy. it should be... interesting. oh, and we have a RESEARCH PAPER in english too! JOY. and guess what? we get to write about an american author! MORE JOY. oh well... at least I get to write about Anne Rice. forget Stephanie Meyers and Twilight, Rice wrote REAL vampire fiction.

so... on to the stress. if you don't want to read a long vent, please skip this.

So guess what? in addition to having a current event that i haven't even started due in Global tomorrow and co-authoring the script for a class project, i also need to teach the Tech school's Director how to do something Biotech-related, as well as practically DO an North Penn student's science fair project for him! see, he wanted to experiment to see how silver affected bacterial growth, so he spun nanofibers of polyvinl and coated them in silver. one catch. he's not licensed to work with bacteria. if he so much as TOUCHES a petri dish, his experiment is ruined, as well as a possibility for his future (i think the first prize in the science fair's a scholarship or something...). so i not only have to make 32 plates for this boy, i also have to tell/show him STEP-BY-STEP what i'm doing. plus... he's... frankly... rather hot. and obviously smart. so i have to stop myself from stammering/blushing like an idiot while doing FRIKIN MICROBIOLOGY!! it's not fair... not fair i say. oh, and guess what? on top of all of this, i need to select my courses for next year BY THE 19TH. and my mom is making me take at least one AP course. plus that, i need 11th grade health, and a gym class for the one i'm missing this year. in addition to that, my mom signed me up to take the SAT's on May 1st, and she's already looking for places so that i can take the ACT's as well. oh, and according to both my parents, i need to start seriously looking at colleges and 'really focusing on my schoolwork' because i need to get into a prestigious university, graduate early, get and establish a career by the age of 25, and support them in their old age and early retirement. plus i got my period yesterday, so there's all that there too (they only call it PMS because 'Mad Cow Disease' was taken). oh, and as the cherry on top, my mom tells me that i need to get another job over the summer, as well as increase my hours at the library. yes, you read right. IN ADDITION to going to England for 2-and-a-half weeks with Chibi-chan, looking after the house when my mom, dad, and brother go on a 'family' vacation to Maine, and house-sitting for at least three 'family friends', i will be working during the week.

hey, anyone? how do you cope with stress? how do you make it go away? i'll try anything...

Okee-doke!

night peeps!

just a few random things... then my (interesting if i may say so myself) day

"HE'S not Hamlet either!"

"Grow mushroom grow!"

"Snowball to the rescue!!!"

Kaitlyn, you should remember these. for Rachel (and any other readers), I will explain.

Kaitlyn, Manga-dealer-chan, Chibi-chan, and a bunch of other people went to see the new Alice In Wonderland movie, by Tim Burton. it was THE DEFINITION OF EPIC. very dark, very... weird, but very awesome. for the 'Hamlet' thing, when we were watching the commercials before the movie (which were mostly for cartoons. it annoyed me), the word HAMLET came on screen. then it went to another commercial with a bunch of celebrities talking about something I can't remember. so we were saying 'nope, he's not Hamlet' 'and she's not Hamlet either!' then it flashed to some guy I can't remember and we both said "HE'S not Hamlet either!" at the exact same time! it was odd... but awesome. like the movie!

the "Grow mushroom grow!" quote is from the credits. for the major characters, the credits had this awesome border around the screen, and it had glowing mushrooms in it! and I noticed that the mushrooms were growing! so I told Kaitlyn and she clapped happily, saying "grow mushroom grow!" then we talked about the glowing and how they were magic mushrooms. but not that kind!

and the "Snowball to the rescue!!!" quote is from one of the epic battle scenes in the movie. there's a Bandersnatch in the movie, and it's big and fluffy and white-ish and awesome. so I wanted one. and told Kaitlyn. and then we decided to share it and name it Fluffy. or Snowball. we decided on Snowball and referred to it as such.

ok, so my day consisted as follows:

annoying homeroom, awesome chemistry class, typical awesome english class, boring social studies, irritatingly boring math, pretty awesome Biotech class.

so really the only out-of-the-ordinary thing was chemistry, which I normally find if not awesome... at least good. but today... (yes this is a story. bear with me.)

we were working on a review sheet, because I think we have a test on Monday or Tuesday or something. my lab partner (who is... not the most studious chemistry student on his best day) missed the day that we took the notes on which we are being tested, so I was going to work alone, in contrast to everyone else, who was working with their lab partners. well, until awesome-boy-who-sits-in-front-of-me decided to ditch his lab partner (who didn't really care) and work with me instead (yay!). he turned around and we shared my desk for a while, then he got tired of that and turned his desk around, continuing work like that. after finishing the worksheet in about 10 to 15 minutes, we were bored. so we had a staring contest (which I, regrettably, lost. see, we were talking during the contest, and I normally blink when I answer a question, so he got me there and said that the only way I could blink fast enough for him not to see it was if he was blinking at the same time), we were in the middle of another one when the teacher noticed our idleness and remarked that we should have brought a pack of cards! then his lab partner said that she had cards and lent them to us. so after debating for about three minutes about what game we should play, we decided on Go-Fish. we had a very quick game (about two minutes) at first because the cards weren't very well shuffled, but I won, so it was good ^.^ then, we had a rreeaallllyy long game (like ten minutes), which he won. so for the epic-final-sudden-death-tie-break-match, we had high-speed Go-Fish because there was only two minutes left in the period, and TIED! can you believe it? so he challenged me to another game next time we had free time. I hope I win...

anyway, that's all the interesting stuff that happened today! (plus I have to get to sleep 'cause I have work tomorrow!) see ya!

Kat 0.O